"Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage." - Anaïs Nin


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27.6.08

35.

FREEEEEEEEEEEDOM.
well, not really.
its just that i get a day rest.
partially coz of my aunt here.
shes so awesome.
lol, shes like young ish.

she gave me a shirt!
and i got another shirt.
from hsbc, which is from SPCA.
which i wanna go to.
i feel like working there!
after exams that is.

YESSSSS EXAMS WERE EASIER THAN EXPECTED.
i mean seriously.
it was easier than.. mid year.
which i feel confident.
coz i really really hope science would be as "easy" like them.
and other subjects :D

haha anyways.
for people who tried to text/call me for the past few days, dont bother waiting for a reply.
coz, my phone cant turn on and i dont have any plans but just to ignore about it.
no, i dont want a phone currently.
because it WILL disturb my studies :)

ah, what else really?
dunno, im supposed to go hampshire in ANY second now.
my sister went to jakarta alreadyyy.
i wanna goo toooo!
psh, and i still have to wait like 22 days ish.
AAH.

i got my holidays all planned up!
and yes,i do expect a LOT of fun :)

17.6.08

34.

no, life has NOT gotten any better.
okay, today has been one of my worst.
i blame myself for getting soo jeong in trouble.
i pissed him off.
im such an ass.
and then, my phone.
its still repairing.
but yknow.
the MOST important part of my phone is NOT working.
i bought the phone for THAT particular application.
wanna know what it is?
its the freakin camera.
WTF.
im sulking right now for my goddamn idiocy.
seriously, the only question that we always (as humans) wonder is WHY.
that was the question that soo jeong got into trouble too.
wtf.

god, i hate this.
i cried, wondered WHY.
my eyes are sore coz of my tears right now.

god.
well whatever.
i can save money.
to buy a kick-ass camera.
while my sister gets the EOS camera thingamabob.
i can have a normal one.
ixus or cybershot or something.
then i save money to buy a telescope.
i need one now.
i mean seriously, i wanna keep my ambition.

oh well, the other side of the "depression" is..
went to frim on saturday.
woohoo i was sweating my ass off.
my breakfast sucked though.
haha i cried coz it was too spicy.
we had pizza for dinner.

next day kalila came :)
she lightened up my day.
it was so fun.
we studied - really.
she thought me geography!
shes so good.
and we went to jusco.
shes so fun :D
lol, she thinks my dad is adorable.
nyaha, he was so dumbstruck.
kinda.
lol. the osim thingy was fun :D
haha and the bra incident.
lol idk, dont wanna get too personal in that.
yesterday.. nothing much.

todays not my greatest day.
and thank god i wasnt writing this when i was crying.
itll be all too much worse now :)
i know, im not making any sense.
ill be back - writing my last post until finals.
WHICH IS ON THURSDAY. :(

13.6.08

33.

okay, im really sleepy right now.
totally tired.
my friday the 13th is just normal.
except for the fact that.. :)
haha not a good thing.

so anyways, i couldnt sleep until like 2 am.
so, yeah.
i was listening to my ipod and imagining concerts.
im a dumbass.
haha
yeah,it was fun.
i was actually sweating.
i cant believe my patheticness.
haha.

okay, so after school was alright.
its sad to see vandana leaving though.
haha. in a way i sorta signed his ass.
haha :P

went to ampang point for my sisters drum class.
then blah blah.
went to jasmines at like about 4 and turned out that the coach came late.
haha syeah.
tennis was so fun!
lol, seriously it was one of my funnest.
then, we went to wait for my mom near the pool.
celina was there.
her brother was there.
with his friends - johan and kristian.
ITS SO SAD. FOR ME.
GOD.
haha anyways, we were talking and johan was like
"lets go swim!"
to my sister.
thought he was joking..
BUT HE THREW HER IN!
and i was laughing my ass off.
UNFORTUNATELY..
it was MY turn.
damn, screamed like a sheep.
hahaha :P
ridiculous.
i got so fucking wet!
it was so.. gah
haha johan was being himself -___-

and now im back home.
i think i really need to sleep now.
*yawn*
anyways, wednesday.
what happened to ayesha was totally sad!
she was carrying my violin, all full of joy.
and she fell into the gutter!
haha i was laughing like shit!
and then we talked to some people.
ayesha was like.
"WHERES BLINKEEEE!"
and yeah, i noticed her leg.
IT WAS BLEEDING!
hahaha i thought it was coz of period!
HAHAHA but it was hilarious.
sophia cared a lot about her btw.
haha shes really nice (:

thursday was hilarious too!
we were waiting for my mom, after school.
and sophia made ALL of us laugh.
shes so funny!
i think my mom loves her.
she called me a kid and she said that joshua was my bf.
lol, awkward.

activities were GREAT.
we went to community service - again.
BUT IT WAS THE GREATEST COMMUNITY SERVICE IVE DONE.
its so touching.
how those kids can smile after what theyve gone through.
and i thought my life was horrible enough.

i wanna sleep or something.
we're going to FRIM tmrw.
i wanna ride my bike.
and forget my history, coz rizrin reminded me again.

btw, exams are 2 days earlier.
*sigh*
monday it is.
its like 2 weeks... LESS.
wtf!
im not coming online.

10.6.08

32.

YAY.
i finished with my first-ever FF.
*sigh*
its not the best out of the best.
but i tried.

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4305152/1/Emancipation_of_You_and_Me
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4305152/1/Emancipation_of_You_and_Me
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4305152/1/Emancipation_of_You_and_Me

there you gooo!
anyways, my dad is sick.
hes in gleaneagles now :(
naw.

csi ny new season tonight!
YAY.
haha i cant wait.

anyways, i wanna put david cooks song here.
coz its so sexy.
his voice is so sexy.
ultimately sexy.
GOD.
sexy.
hahahahah i finished reading my favourite EVER ff.
shes hilarious.
i think i wrote that before.
i cant wait for more!
HA!
lol.

9.6.08

31.

i dont know why, i feel like im not going to be in a good mood after this thing.

anyways, the weekend was one of my shittiest.
coz well, its like worse than those days when i didnt go out.
the only thing was like my insomnia.
idk why, i really think i have it.

summer splash.
idk, i expected more.
it wasnt worth lining up for.
IT WASNT EVEN A FUCKING LINE.
people were like crowding that thing, its so stupid.
it really pissed me off coz i waited for like half an hour just for that.
like i had butt sex with the person at the back of me.
sucks.
and then we had to go and buy the ticket.
which was 45 bucks.
it was so not worth it.
sadly, steph didnt bring any money :(
so yeah, i had to pay for her.
then, we went to search for ruvina or zack.
couldnt find them, then we went to tomahawk.
ive to say it was really fun coz steph and i couldnt stop screaming.
haha it was seriously fun.
then we met ezzat and john in the opposite direction.
*luck*
haha then kalila and steph went for the colorado splash thingy.
we wanted to go but there were so many people.
so we didnt go, instead we went to the boot thingy.
EZZAT YOU DONT KNOW HOW TO PLAY THE CLAPPING THINGY.
haha.
then.. we still couldnt find those two.
calvin went back after we got off the boot thingy.
john was tired and all the others were too.
ezzat sort of forced me to go scream park
@____@
IT WAS.. idk.
haha, it was scary.
i screamed- of course.
haha you can ask ezzat by yourself to that answer.
so, we didnt have much time.
and it was already 6.
god, i didnt even have a chance to change!
god.
haha

anyways, i had like 20 bucks left.
i spent it on cookies and drinks.
sucks to be in sunway coz it all has to be expensive.
screw that!

sunday, i finished my two-shot FF.
which i turned out, to NOT have a review at all.
im soo sad.
but i was reading an FF, from this girl.
god, she is HILARIOUS.
i love her!
haah, i couldnt finish her whole story.
coz i had tennis.
WHICH WAS FUN.
HAHA at last!
we had doubles, but i screwed it up.
even though the coach and i was a team.
screw that!
lol.
then we didnt have the keys to go home..
and my parents werent at home.
god, so we went to diada.
it was okay.

today was alright.
i found out that i suck at history.
well, i naturally do but yeah.
trip got 98.
and daniel got like what?
100?
screw him!

then, we were all darn broke.
and so.. we were suffering from thirst and hunger.
and that sucked more.
coz my mom bought us noodles which was fucking spicy!
so i made scrambled eggs.
which my sister screwed.
aaaah why is my day getting worse.

my phone is going to be alive!
I LOVE YOU.
i wish i can have it now.
i want moneeeey! :( :(

oh yea, me and my sister took my moms wallet with the intention of going to the mamak
and my mom is like NO!
coz she was talking to kresnos mom.
and then she was like "WERE GOING TO FINISH OUR CONVERSATION"
and she started again.
sigh, moms these days.

AH!
i needa study.
my schedule is effective from today.
god, save me from exams.

6.6.08

30.

life. is. deceiving.
i sort of "lost" my keys for like a day.
almost cried.
i mean, EEYORE :( :(
lol anyways, i found them yesterday.
so yeah.

whats new?
im quarter way to my 2nd chapter in my FF.
so im really hoping i can finish it soon.
i wanna finish before i start my studying.
yes, its like 19 more days.

ngah, im so not ready.
i got a lot of things to do.
ive got like unfinished stuff.

im in this really hectic position coz im going for this summer splash thingy and i really need a ticket to go.
ezzat made me totally confused all about it.
ngah, so my decision is that im going with steph to there and going back with my sisters.
tickets?
it all depends on carmens hands.
if i dont have, thats my luck, i just stay and study.
*sigh*

okay, so what happened today?
i met jarah!
woot woot!
lol, everyone did.
which is great!
i got a picture in her phone that could prove it :D
i really have to go to singapore to bungee with her :D
mom promised that i can meet her if we go there!
HAH!

lol anyways.. the day was sort-of fun.
i realized that im a lot better in maths now xD
haha i think im better off isolated.
its so sad.

OH YEAH.
there was a FROG inside the class when it was english!
@____@
IT WAS SO FREAKY
AND DO YOUNG KICKED IT.
i was like "NO!"
haha its animal cruelty.
and i think jun is totally against it too.
glad to hear :D

aah, i need to pee.
and i really need the stopping of my bloody freakin mary.
coz its giving me stupid-aches.
NYAH.

i enjoyed ayeshas visit just now.
she totally lightened up my evening. :D
SHE ROCKS MY SOXXXXXXXXXX
hahahaha, im so lame.

i need carmen to tell me now!
even steph wants me to do so!
gahhhhh why is it so confusing!
im calling her!
thats it.
----

YES i did
she got one ticket. YAY
im officially going
and needing to PEEEE :P

4.6.08

29.

i completed one chapter of my upcoming FF :D
my title is
Emancipation of You and Me.

not telling anymore!
anyways, for those who have ff, have some mercy
coz im totally new to this.
i just read, i dont review.
sorry for those grey's anatomy FFs that i read.
theyre AMAZING.
i need a beta reader though :P

enough about FF.
i lost my keys :(
my EEYORE AND GINGERBREAD MAN :(
its so annoying.
excruciating.
why is my life getting worse and worse?

anyways, the phone deal.
its really making me feel bad.
i know its my fault.
but my dad made me cry so hard.
hopefully my sister is gonna take it to repair tmrw.
thats what they say, but yeah.
i really do hope so.
yumi and ayesha doesnt have a phone either.
what best friends we are (:
yumis phone got confiscated.
ayeshas phone got stolen.
its so unfair.

im losing stuff day by day.
and skills.
IM LOSING MY SKILLS ON PHOTOSHOP AND SIGHT READING.
i suck.
its like i stutter when i read music.
gah, screw it.
i need to make a better self.
*hah*
finals are coming in 21 days!
its not so far away :(
its scaring meeeee.
@____@

i needa study.
should i go for summer splash?
bloody mary is being a total insane bitch and its not letting me go there.
:)
PLUS..
idk, i just dont feel like it and feel like it at the same time.
i have personal reasons.

*cheh*

MY FF PEN NAME IS
VerticallyHorizontal.
idk how i got into it, but im starting to like it. :D

2.6.08

28.

im so tired. :(
i just slept but im still tired.
and im fasting.
i have like, 5 days left if im not mistaken..
nyeh.

MTV ASIA AWARDS IS GONNA BE IN MALAYSIA!
but in august :(
so i hope its like late august. :D

my mom and my dad now knows about my phone.
its freakin 200 to fix it coz.. hehe :)
i broke the warranty thingamabob.
lol
anyways found that out because i went out to pavilion, AGAIN
with jasmine and putra.
this time with my sister too!
lol we picked her up in the morning.
my dad had tennis in titiwangsa, smewhere there.
and we ate nasi lemak.
ah, hunger :|

then at like 2 we went to pavilion
and watch the superhero movie :D
lol, its like forced-comedy.
then we went to sungei wang to take pictures :D
GODDAMMIT IT WAS SO FUN.
haha we took like half an hour to edit the pictures.
before that we went to buy hair spray.
not me though.
putra and jasmine.
haha its not bad, it was only 10 bucks.
haha we then went to the maxis centre.
OH YEAH!
my sister told me to call maxis when we were going back to kl.
aha it was dumb.
but going to the actual maxis centre sucked more.
the guy was so dumb, nowhere close to nice.
pfft.
lol, but its true!
hes sooooooo friendly to customers.
haha.
anyways, then we went to low yat to find out about the repairing thingy..
i dont wanna repeat myself.
then we walked back to pavilion.
IT WAS SO FUNNY.
coz like i was shouting coz the green light for the crossing thingy was blinking
which means to cross faster.
so yeah!
aha people were like looking at me with looks @___@
idk, its this weird thing.
haha we ate kfc.
the chicken chop is not bad!
[for kfc]
aha they were supposed to send me the french fries
and i was like continuously saying
"I GUESS IM NOT GETTING MY FRENCH FRIES"
loudly.
and nooo it didnt help.
screw that.
lol and then we went.. idk back i guess.
then.. mom and dad found out that time
while i was "sleeping" and listening to them.
why am i so goddammit dumb.
theeen.. next day we went to sogo.
ngah, i had to cry.. @___@
we had so less time though.
i bought pants and me and my sisters wanted to buy this shirt,
which was like in red, blue and green.
WE WANTED TO BE POWERPUFF GIRLS!
ngahaha.
lol its dumb but i loved having my sisters around.
we went to kampung baru to pray and then when the adzhan came,
we escaped xD
what muslims we are.
lol i couldnt stop laughing though.
then we went to buy credit in 7-eleven
and i bought slurpee coz i was totally random xD
we aced like 110ish there.
just for credit xD
lol then my sister had too much credit so we called my cousin.
he said hes coming! :D
november.
pfft, haha.
im still gonna meet him like in august so yeah.
haha he owes me a bday present! lol

anyways.. we hung up on him coz we thought my dad was out with the car already.
and it wasnt my dad @___@
haha freaky!
i couldnt stop laughing.. really.
the stupid traffic light.
the crossing thingy, the person was like 70 degrees at first.
haha then i changed it to 180.
haha weird.
we were laughing in front of the hospital!
xD weird.

when my dad got back, he was like completely emotionless.
he didnt laugh, smile. ANYTHING.
it was so freaky.
lol.
idk. anyways tennis was before that.
it was fun!
but the stupid bules have to be there -___-
so next lesson wouldnt be there @___@
idk where itll be.

orchestra was alright.
the curse of tutankhamen is the hardest for me coz there are like so many flats and stuff.
which is ultimately confusing.
theres one tmrw..
idk what im gonna do tmrw.
i really hope i can eat.
lol, screw hunger!