you don't have to steal anymore [152]

i love the colours of this picture :)

i'm alive! sadly am really. i have so much of math work to do and im really clueless about the whole lot. its seriously a bummer to have math.

anyways, my last post sounded so emo.
but it was seriously a bad day for me.
friday was good though :)
but the only bad thing was that my career studies video is due on thursday which i still think is not possible.
okay, fine, maybe plausible but seriously, its gonna be a heck of time.
editing movies arent my thing because it takes lots of patience. which i dont have (:
hahaha.

bought bubble tea on friday. yay! its seriously a thing for fridays.
met Hanif too so yay :)
went back home alone with my mom.
went to klcc since my dad had to take the car.
i wanted to pee at avenue K. i couldnt coz they charge people now. that sucksss.
so i had to go all the way to klcc to pee.
-.-

waited for my dad for like half an hour when he said he was gonna be there in 20.
ha, punctuality is not in the family line. but clumsiness is hereditary. i see it with my own eyes :) har.

and yea, im having such an urge for pears.
someone buy me pears. i want those crispy fruits so bad right now.
my throat would be so happy to gulp em down HAHA

me and my mom went back with the LRT. idk why its hilarious.
oh yeah there was a monk who wanted to go out. he practically took all the space and i almost lost my balance. geeez man.
i bought curry puffs from the sooka sentral ramadhan bazaar thingy!
i love those types of bazaars. i like looking at food but not buying it hahahaha.

slept until i didnt see my dad and my sisters when they came back home.
and today i only got to talk for my sisters for a while since they went to "camp". "camp" meaning ramadhan week thing that my moms friends and what not arrange. they do that every year.
couldnt go since i was coughing like crap.
i was supposed to read the translation but my mom told her friends i couldnt do it.
lol imagine me doing it. would be hilarious :)

when i saw my name on that thing, i didnt realize it was mine.
what an idiot. my sisters laughed at me. haha.

im hella bored since im completely obliged to not do my math
okay, i dont know what obliged means but that sentence sounded awesome. LOL.
going to bangsar for dinner in a bit.

OH i think im going to that No Plastic Bag Bazaar with my mom! yay!
go green!

celebrate the day [151]

i was going on strong these past few months of not seeing a doctor.
and yesterday, i broke that record.

on wednesday we had the beep test. i managed to get to level 5 and i was exhausted. my legs were aching and my bruises were screaming stop!stop!
at least i finally reached a higher level.

i was totally incapable of doing anything anymore after that. well not really, but still. i was exhausted.
it took me a long time to change. me and andriana walked back to my locker so slowly.
she said my forehead was hot but i kinda ignored it.
i then got worried after sometime and went to sick bay with rina. thanks btw :)
the lady said my temperature was up to 38. i didnt know how bad it was until another person came in and got her temperature only at 36. but that was later.

i cried when i called my mom up. that, is called reflex my friends.
i cry whenever i feel sick. too sick. or when i get really really mad. or when i realize that my world just sucks.
i slept in the sick bay for about an hour till my sister came. my mom allowed me to buka my puasa.
my fever cooled off a bit after i woke up.
i went to see the doctor and i think my fever was gone by then.
my mom got a lot of calls from her friends coz she was having some thingy with them.
terima kasih tante-tante :)

i got 4 meds and when you put it all together they taste so bad.
my throat is so bitter from them.
i kept on sleeping and waking up and sleeping and waking up.
i vomited my hot chocolate.
and after dinner, i vomited my dinner. along with the lozenge i was taking.

now im at home, leaving my sister all alone for the 3rd time. i'm sorry.
it feels horrible to be in this state right now...
i just feel so weak to even laugh.
i cannot wait for this to be over.

theres nothing good in this.
someone help me get through this horrible nightmare.
if youre kind enough, get me pears. im so craving for one now.

im just wondering how im gonna keep this up for the whole month of ramadhan.

it breaks my heart to see another tragedy [150]

isnt it funny?
when its ramadhan i actually become more sporty.
its not a nice feeling though. being dehydrated is one of the worst things ever.
having diarrhea is the worst ever.

anyway, sunday was alright. we went to buka at my ex-neighbours house.
her house is nice :)
we were the first one to go since we had to go back to the hostel.
bleh, but im fine with the people really.

monday was school again. oh how i miss assignments and homework so much!
please note the sarcasm there.
got to meet hanif in the morning though :)
PE was horrible since we had the frekkin Fitness Test.
i couldnt believe i actually ran around 19 laps of the MPH. for 12 minutes.
tomorrow is the beep test. i think i wouldnt do any better for it since, 1. im fasting and 2. i have 2 bruises. on my right thigh and leg.
it was horrible.
i got it when i went for flying fox.
apparently i went too fast so i flipped.
i think i got it really bad.

went to camp broga today. it wasnt that bad.. but it wasnt that great either.
if only i wasnt thirsty, maybe it would be so much better.
it was so hot, and i was wearing black being the idiot i already am.
we did some obstacle courses with a partner and some other thinking game thingys.

i hung out with amiera and naufal since we were all fasting.
we saw a couple of people taking the coconut. damn, me and amiera were frekkin tempted.
so, me and amiera resulted to bringing it back to the hostel for buka =]

when i went back to school, i got a couple of stares since i was carrying the coconut on my arm. well either way, we would still be looked at. i still wonder why.
me and amiera went to buy bubble tea after getting our coconuts cut.
but sadly amieras bubble tea dropped :(
it was such a bummer for her.

i wanted to go back to my room but i forgot my lock key inside the room.
wanted to go to my housemates room but they werent back. so i went upstairs and went to amieras room.
chatted with her for around an hour and my sister came and "picked me up"
took me around 10 minutes to get a proper shower.

i seriously am very tired.
i think im getting sicker too.
its seriously ruining my mood, and nothings making me any better.
urgh.

je ne sais pas, cent quatorze neuf?

i miss learning french.
i didn't take up french club since it was... well, for starters.
i want to continue the "hard part" so i have to find some online classes or something..
maybe i should persuade my mom so that i can have lessons in Allaise Francais... but its so far away from my house now ):

anywho, Ramadhan started yesterday.
its been alright really. im just really tired since i went cycling in tasik perdana this morning.
i managed to take some pretty pictures. i now know how to make the colours nicer ;)

yesterday went to this big house coz my moms friend is having a farewell buka puasa.
man, that house is humongous but yet there wasnt enough space for everyone to do the shalat together.
it was alright though... the food was okay. haha i only got to see the cat before we left but didnt get to touch it :(

before that we went to mid valley for my sisters laptop and i bought my sister her birthday present. i hope she liked it since it was Ultraman :)
and its the "baby" ultraman so is much cuter :)
yeah and i totally forgot to go and buy my body lotion, grr.
but i managed to buy my headphones. and the laptop sticker. yay!

didnt go shopping on friday.
i saw this batman-ish shirt in FOS but my mom said no since the quality of the material wasnt worth 33 bucks.
so hopefully well go buy it in DC. i think im gonna buy the hoodie tooo :) weee.

going to my old neighbours house later for buka.
i cant wait, i love her kid. shes so adorable.
i dont wanna go back to the hostel but i really do want to see someone in sunway :)

selamat berpuasa to those who are fasting! =]

tom felton is the sex. [148]

someone melt with me.

isn't he just so frekkin hot? i'm so happy i follow him on twitter :)

yummy♥

i'm getting sick. please tell me i'll be fine.

tearing apart but still intact, that's what my heart is. [147]

Aujord'hui, j'ai quinze ans.
:)

Today, I'm 15 years old.
I'm not exactly the most happiest during my birthday but I'm so touched by how many people actually wished me.
I swear I've never been more shocked in my whole life.
I want to count, but that sounds so desperate.
I just want to say thank you all so much. I love you all, and God bless.
Gee, never know I could sound so formal!

Okay, desperation time.
So far I've had around 80 people wishing me. Wow, that is quite a lot.
I never knew this many people actually know me. Haha xD

Anyways, I had an awesome time with my Sayfol friends and I had a blast eating meatballs.
I had tons of fun, even though we didn't do so much. I miss them so bad, and I am so glad that my Sayfol friends actually like my Sunway friends :) and vice versa!
That means I can easily take them out ;)

We ate meatballs in Ikea and we kinda chilled... Even though some of them went missing when I was eating.
We went around the Curve and Cineleisure.
Just hanging out. Didn't watch a movie, because I didn't want to :)

- whoa.
My grandparents just wished me! :)
So far the most touching one is so my Dad.
I feel so bad now, I felt like crying when I read the email.
I managed to wet my eyes just now.

Anywho, I finally got an Elmo.
Actually I got two Elmos.
I'm super happy coz I have Elmos now :)
thank you guys so much!
I love all my presents, and I swear I cannot thank my friends enough at all.

I'm sorry if it was sorta boring for a few of you. I really am. I swear, I'm going to pay you all back. Or else God will :)

I watched Eight Below at night. Finished watching at around 1.30 and I was crying.
Saddest movie ever.
I'm so happy.
:)

I hope I get to go shopping this friday :)
I know what to buy now :)

Once again, thank you everyone.
I love you from the bottom of my 15-year-old heart :)

p.s a special thanks to:
Darius, Kresno, Natalie, Ezzat, Jun, Hasbi, Fadhil, Joshua, Akmal, Rina, Jenny, Audrey, Qalila and Wei Yew for coming all the way to my birthday :)
i ♥ you all. =]

[146] no, i won't wait forever.

you taste just like glitter mixed with rock and roll.

i can finally say
it's the holidays!
i havent had this ever since i went to SIS.
its been a month that ive been in SIS.
its so fast.

anyways, i got my Learning Skills Report today.
i got a B for my Phys Ed.
the rest A :) yay. hahaha.
geek time!
LOL, one of my friends got all A.
shes super smart, so i know she deserved it.

i had a massive headache yesterday and i think i still a bit of it today.
im still clueless of how i got it, but i think its coz im really tired.
my mom is right, ive been having such horrendous fridays.
i think i should lay off the hanging out. especially since fasting month is coming next week.
it feels fast. everything feels fast.
is the end of the world coming?

i feel like eating pizza.
dominos to be exact. and the sides, oh yeah.
i have such weird cravings...
i have so much work to do for the holidays! i hope i get to finish it on time though.
theres gonna be another day where i have a day trip for PE.
speaking of PE i think my food fair went horrible. no one ate my food :(
oh well.
like chermayne said, the unhealthy food finished fast. haha

im hungryyyy goly god.

i dare you to eat 145 apples.

i hate apples.

im saying that since i got sick of eating apples during camp.
boy camp at night was horrible.
i mean, i had shit loads of fun when we were in the waterfall but at night was just a state of horror. for me at least.
okay, lets start of with the good part.
i swear, the waterfall was beautiful.
i never felt so.. breathless.
the water was down right awesome and it was really cold but i still swam (or sorta) in it. :)
the "journey" to go there was really tough though. i got a little bubu from the river crossings and the thorns and sticks of the plants.
i swear, bringing my camera added an extra burden but it was worth the challenge :)

after that i managed to have a little nap. sleeping on the rocks with the sound of the water trickling down.
it was awesome.
i managed to chillax. :)
played some games tadadadada after that.

had to eat maggi mee kari for dinner.
man, it took me an hour to finish that. it was super duper spicy!
i was crying... sorta.

at night, we managed to take pictures of the light thing.
it looked so cool! i cannot wait to get hold of those pictures.
we were all playing with our torch light since there were no light.
at all.
lights out was at 10 which was really surprising.
oh well.

me, rina and jenny didnt want to sleep in our tent since it was went coz one of the water bottles leaked and it soaked like quarter of our stuffs.
it was really stuffy since our stuffs were like messed up and placed all over the place.
since it rained, we couldnt sleep outside.
so me and rina slept in the tent.
where it was wet.
i thought that was bad enough until i found out that the tent was leaking.
and it was coming to me.
not rina, me.
rina was so bloody lucky!
my sleeping bag got wet so i had to sleep with my knees upstraight.
it was really bad and cold.

we woke up and found a mashed banana and oreo.
so our tent smelt like a banana the next day.
didnt do so much the next day we just packed. and chilled some more in the river.
was bummed about the people but it was okay. :)
slept oddly in the bus so my back kinda hurt just now.

natalies hang out was really fun. :)
im so happy i got to meet my other friends =]
oh, and i had lunch over at basil on sunday. one word: yummy.
the best thai food ever.
i shall try flying chillies with my family next time.

ah, great. school again tomorrow and none of my homework are finished.
screwed, no shit.

144; correction tapes

now everything is coming undone,
coz you were the chance i can't afford to waste.
i love you since the day,
the day we fell apart.

i was supposed to make this blog yesterday but since i was too embedded to talking to people online i totally ignored this. haha.
anyways, i feel really bummed bout yesterday.
i mean, of course im happy that i finally got to meet them all, but it wasnt really worth waiting four hours all by myself.
thank god i had my laptop.

either way im happy that i finally got to meet qalila, stephanie, roshiv, wei yew and hanif :)
roshiv apparently has mtv world stage tickets so, i might go. YES!
but its 150 :(
someone buy it for me!

the schedule for the hostel study thing is really short.
i just realized that.
i think i passed the curfew for quite a few times.
LOL, oh well. i do that a lot... HAHA.

ive got camping next week for two days!
i cant wait for it somehow. i know its gonna be a load of fun :)
im gonna have to bring so many things when i go back to the hostel. sigh.
anyways, because of camping id be missing school... so i have shit loads of work.
math especially. i think mr derek is evil.

photography is quite hard.. now that i have to apply the rule the pictures are so hard to take. hahah. but my sister and i managed to do some light photography thing.
ill post the pictures soon, i hope :)

i had dress down day for friday.
it was really cool.
thats all. hahahaha.

nothing much really happened, im just really exhausted.
i need to get ready for natalies bday right now.. cant wait to see my friends :)

I am a photographer 24/7. I shall take pictures of everything.
(well, thats what my photography teacher told)

bang 143 trees and nature would love you =]

me and rina wasting our time during lunch :)
we probably would be doing this everyday since cameras are what we use for TGJ. :)
eep! im so happy i got this class. haha.

i had fun for the past few days but ive been hella tired.
i need a holiday.
im glad its coming real soon :)

happy birthday to my eldest sister!
shes special since shes now 21.
old. hahaha.
imagine me 21!

i miss a lot of people, especially one in particular. =]
loves xo

buy one for two. :)

lol, the title sounds so... pasar malam-ish.

i'm hella bored.

so someone should save me :)

my parents got back from Indonesia on thursday and so the house was a mess when i got back from the hostel. my mom said the luggages were overload but i still dont see why.. they didnt get me that many things. maybe its coz of the pecel. (don't ask if you don't know what it is)

but my mom got me my body scrub so im happy :)

thursday was so much fun. we got to do roller blading/inline skating. i havent done it for a while but i managed to not fall so yay me :) it was seriously fun. we even got to do basketball on roller blades. i dont think i did anything but yeah haha. it was still fun.

my communications technology class's chapter of photoshop is done so from tomorrow onwards were starting on photography :) i so cannot wait for that.

i finally get to hog the camera with a reason :D

oh, speaking of cameras; me, my sister, deedee and ilya went and photoboxed on friday :)

it was so fun. the pictures turned out great too. id take a picture of it one day and post it here. =]

we were in pyramid and ice skated.

it was so random.

hey! lets go to pyramid!

yeah! lets go!

OH MY GOD lets go ice skating!

yeah!!!

and with that, we actually went.

but it was really fun actually.

and once again, i did not fall. :)

my sister did though, and there was like a mini puddle.

oh well.

it was frosty fridays so i bought frostys in wendys :)

it wasnt so good, i still liked this coke float. but i think i drank that a long time ago.

i betrayed it and went and bought popcorn chicken in kfc.

bought fries in mcdonalds and ate there :)

i want to go to MTV world live so bad.

stupid celcom sim of mine is inactive so i dont know how im gonna get a hold of the tickets.

bleh.

hey!

its august now.

wow, time passed by... fast.

in 17 more days its gonna be my birthday.

im gonna be fif-frekkin-teen.

shit, thats fast.

tennis wasnt so bad today.

but i was all alone.

my sister got sick and god knows where jasmine was.

oh well.

walked around KLCC with my tennis racket, sweats and a hoodie.

people wear dresses to go to that place.

oh well, not me.

i wore a jacket, jeans and flip flops in pavilion. haha.

i guess im too... carefree. haha.

ate at nandos and MFM finally.

ive been anticipating!

haha, oh. i signed up for the school magazine and yearbook.

i cant wait for that :)