"Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage." - Anaïs Nin


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29.7.09

somebody call 141. =]

i tried to be someone else,
but nothing seemed to change.
i know now, this is who i really am inside.
finally found myself, finally for a change;
i know now, this is who i really am.

sounds like a disney song?
well it's not. it's 30 seconds to mars :)
i just realized i havent blogged for almost a week. lol, time passes by so fast. i mean ive been in Sunway for almost 3 weeks now. its just so... fast.
my parents are coming back tomorrow! see, that is fast. i hope my mom got me my body scrub and other things that i want her to buy :)

these days have been so painful and sore physically. im not heartbroken :) (if i was, we would all know whom to blame =])
had fitness testing for PE. on monday we had to do the 12 minute walk/run thing. i did 18 laps and i was so bloody tired. had a temporary brain freeze since we ran in the MPH which was freezing.

the next day we did some of the flexibility tests... and rugby. with all the sores.
all i can say is, holy crap. but i managed to hide the pain and kept playing.. eventhough we lost. ahha.
like prasad said : because without losers, there are no winners!
which is so true :)

today, my body aches more than ever.
did my agility sprint, which i knew i could do better. i was so blur of where to go. haha.
beep test was the worst. all the soreness came to my head and just stopped me.
oh my god, especially for the wall sit. i know i couldve stayed longer.
i swear, by the end of this semester i'm going to be so fit.
which is good. not only that, i hope i get taller. =]

anyways, schools been alright.
my careers presentation was quite a mess actually. i think it was quite bad.. or it was just my negativity. haha. or the people are just really mean to not laugh at the video.
i cant wait to find out what my grades would be.
i got a 4 for my communications technology :)
in canadian standard its really good. :D :D
im supposed to do my math homework but im so lazy to my ass off of this thing.

on saturday i went to yumis house to talk to her.
and we did, besides the fact that she had some complications - haha.
yeah, met ji hye there :)
well i kinda let myself loose to her and told her what i really felt and stuff.
ate nasi pataya for the first time. it was nice but i got a really bad stomachache after that.
thats why i was so quiet when i went to klpac. haha, sorry hanif.
it was really nice though. it was an eye opener in a way.

didnt go for tennis on sunday since i only woke up at 8.50, when tennis was at 9. haha.
went to eat at this korean restaurant in pyramid.
and realized i left my undies at home when i was in the hostel.
and the laundry wasnt there yet.
oh well.
so on monday i had to go back to kl to get them.
boo me for my utter clumsiness.

its been real tiring so i guess id better finish up my maths hw coz mr derek is gonna give so much more.
theres a stupid orientation for the hostel.
one word, pointless.
and we have to make a drama? even more pointless!

you know where you are?
you're in the jungle baby!

gotta love Guns N Roses.

23.7.09

140. with gawking stares that don't care

i finished my homework today!
it feels so empty without it.
i'm so bored, i'm doing notes in facebook - i only do that when i'm bored.

i skyped with her the other night for about 2 hours or something and that was fun :)
didn't take a picture but i got this


since we didn't have much to do, we decided to camwhore LOL.
the HP laptops look really cool but heavy. i didn't regret buying a dell :)
we had assembly today so the periods were cut short.
so i didnt have to do my presentation for careers class :D
i felt so relieved but not so in away. i just can't wait to get over with it.
jenny went and her face was red. she looked like she was gonna pass out!

anywho, we're learning to use cs4 for communications technology. holy god it's so fun :D haha. i hope we can get the software in our computers.. that would make life so much easier :)
i just found out how to put a background in a text, that sucks. haha.
well at least now i know :)

had fitness test for P.E. planks is like whoa. my body was shaking all the time, i'm so unstable.
but i managed to stay for like.. say.. 2 minutes? :D
sit ups were the worst. haha.

i had such an unlucky day yesterday.
1. a spider was inside my bag. i think ive gotten slightly arachnophobic.
2. my skirt got when i was changing (partly, thank god)
3. i dropped some rice while i was eating, making a mess to my shorts.
4. i have to carry 2 heavy books to school. maths. and P.E. who carries books for PE?
5. my skirt was unzipped... and no one told me.
:(
i swear that bummed my day!
i also tripped (well, almost) when i was going up the stairs of the hostel.
man, that sucks!

rina still didnt present her job ad till now, so i cant wait for it tomorrow :)

oh one thing from FML
Today, I had a very intense sexual dream that made me come and left me panting when I woke up. It was the best orgasm I'd ever had.The trouble was, it wasn't about a hot girl, or anything sexy. It was about bacon.

=]

yesterday me and rina wanted to ask something from Mr Derek.
and he asked about my book, and i messed up my words and said that I left my locker in the book. i couldn't stop laughing :)
till next time when i'm freee =]

21.7.09

cent trente neuf.

so i go,
and i will not be back here again.
i'm gone as the day is fading,
on white houses.

homework homework homework
dude, this is just like my second week. my first week of the permanent timetable.
i already have like 2 assignments from my communications technology class and i had to present the first one. and the teacher asked me out of the blue. i was freaking out.
i hope i did well coz i was too nervous. haha.
rina got to do it tomorrow coz it took so much time for me to load my file. urgh i still hate you for that!

and i have tons of work to do for maths.
whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!
mr dereks being so unreasonably mean :(
he just has to give homework everyday.

my laptop was lagging just now so i restarted it.
i was doing my careers project and after i restarted it half the stuff were gone :(
urgh i felt the anger. but thank god i remembered what i did. and thank god of the power of internet history haha!

so yeah. had the first drama club meeting today.
i had to act as a serial killer. which is quite hard... my name was mike - lol, idk what made me come up with that name. but it was really funny =]

had rugby for P.E for the past 2 days and it made me realize how much i sucked at defense coz i seriously cant do it. haahah.

i am so sleepy but i have to go finish my maths.

Harry Potter is seriously not the worth waiting for one year! so if you reaaaaally wanna go and watch it, you can but you might be disappointed.
tennis sucked. screw tennis and screw the love of it!

urgh someone stop the bloody time so that i can do my maths and sleep for 8 hours.

18.7.09

one three eight.

i'm cool as fire, baby,
hot as ice.
if you've ever been to heaven,
this is twice as nice =]

LOL.
i've always loved that song.
i'm listening to Britney Spears right now.

anywho, the last time i blogged i was like, free of homework.
now, i have 3. one from a class that i just attended once and the other two from P.E and Careers. thank god the one in careers is due on thursday. but anyway, i finished the one for CT :D i hope its good enough. i dont want to present it in front of the class though.
i got my english changed - thank god - to a higher level but thats only next semester. so for the replacement, i have Communications Technology... which is a grade 11 class. it freaks me out!
me and deedee went into the class and felt lost. we were like, are we in the right class?
and we were.
man, one of the scariest moments.

went to pyramid with a couple of hostel people. it was fun. i bought this panda key thing. its so cute. rina bought it in forever 21 for like 20 bucks and i paid like 4 bucks for it HAHA.
we went back only around 9 coz... i dont know actually. what were we doing?

we had yoga for thursday again since the field was closed. after that we had some game and boy it was fun =]

friday felt like it was such a long day.
finished school at 12.30 and it felt so short! we had "lunch" on 9.35 or somewhere around there.
and friday was the day i had a math quiz. i skipped a couple, i think.
after school, met up my sister to go back to KL :D
but we only got to go out at around 2.30.
there was this traffic jam. i needed to pee so i walked all the way to pavilion to pee! :D
no lah, i went to meet Hanif =]
i felt so bad for making him wait for like 2 hours.. all alone.
i'm sorry again. ahha
i'm not gonna tell the whole story but, conclusion - i had fun :D
weird thing was after that, me and my sisters went to Jusco Setiawangsa to get Wendy's so i met Hanif again. haha, got to ride his car.

today - or yesterday me and my sister went to Low Yat with my sisters primary school friend.
we were there for like 2 hours plus, man.
didnt even get to eat. talk about hunger :(
i got meself.. nothing. haha
just some internet cables for the hostel. wanted to buy headphones but ill just wait for my parents to come back =]
we went to mid valley and ate yoshinoya. played around with my sister's friend's camera. its the dslr types, so it was cool to play around with. haha.
i wanna see the results though :)

my sister wanted to watch Harry Potter so bad. we tried every cinema, but finally we're watching in The Gardens. yes, 20 bucks. but i hope it's worth it!
can't wait to watch it after tennis.
i have to go sleep now.
ah me gad its 2.30 in the morning.

15.7.09

agent 137

holy god i'm getting really sick these days.
sore throat and occasional fever and headache, this is really bad.

anyway, school has been real fun :)
i had yoga for P.E just now and that was a really good way to refresh my body.
it feels so flexed now. haha, some people can stretch so much!

theres gonna be a teacher supervising us for study so no more facebook! naw.
oh, good thing is, i found a way to get internet from the hostel. all thanks to Ilya =]
its quite boring in there without it so yeah.
i'm craving for bubble tea... but im trying to save me money.
i missed 2 dinners - LOL. but its alright.

went to pyramid with a couple of the hostel people. almost passed our curfew, but that was a close call!
haha, i had fun but hot damn im tired.
i'm supposed to do my careers journal but i'm reaaaally lazy to write right now.

i miss my friends and family so bad.
and you, you dummy pinching thingy.

14.7.09

get your kicks on 136.

Hola!
i havent blogged for quite a while eh?
well these days have been so busy really.

anyways, i've started school already.
sunway is such an awesome place, everyone in sayfol should join =]
the orientation was a great way to start with.. i made a couple of new friends; i'm so happy :)
haha, and the ice breaker was really fun. its a really good way to know the teachers too.
the rules were okay, not as harsh as sayfol's. so in yo face sayfolians. ha.

i still dont have my uniform yet though. im wearing a similar one but i dont like it.
its so hard to walk in! urgh.
we went shopping for the school on saturday, very troublesome.
especially the gardens incident. had to go all over just for toilet.
screw you bladder!
sushi king can really make me hyper for absolutely no reason. i can just start laughing pointlessly after eating in there. which isnt bad :)

the car didnt start on sunday coz the water was dry or some sort. so me and my sister didnt go for tennis which was a bummer since the weather was really nice that day. dammit. haha
instead we went to jalan tun sambathan for a while.
moved in the hostel on sunday, it's been alright for now.

my first day was alright.. i have P.E everyday on 2nd period! but its real fun :D
lunch is for around 1 hour and 20 minutes so i have to get used to the long duration. unlike sayfol and its 30 minute lunch. hahaha.
i met up with hanif after school. i got 2 bruises all because of him! :(
so much for not meeting one month.

i missed dinner last night. lol, i still havent finished the one they gave though.
chatted up with the hostel people. theyre fun :)
but they said that there are no good channels on tv!
what a rip off.

my second day has been alright, but i got really tired from P.E. but it was fun :)
i need to buy a coupla stuff for my subjects.
im so hungry. :(

i miss everyone!
and yeah, if anyone knows any of my marks please tell me =]
xo

8.7.09

135 and we're alive!

coz even when i dream of you,
the sweetest dream will never do.
i still miss you baby,
and i don't wanna miss a thing

- i don't wanna miss a thing

i can hear Blades Of Glory on TV. one of the weirdest movies I've watched. I love Jon Heder. He looks so adorable, especially in Napoleon Dynamite.. even if I haven't watched it yet xD

anyways, today was my last day of being a Sayfolian.
of course, it wasn't exactly the best way to spend it but at least there wasn't anyone whose eyes were wet. at least i hope not.
but i guess the people who wrote on my shirt was enough.
sadly, i didn't say bye to everyone.. everyone went home so early.
oh well.

art was alright coz my piece didn't turn out to be so bad, but comparing to other people, it was quite normal.
econs was a total screw up coz i seriously didn't wanna bother anymore.
french.. the french paper was already screwed up since the text wasn't there. there's always problems in the french paper.

well, all i can say is that i didn't cheat for any of the exams =]
lol, seriously.

all i gotta do now is wait for my results.

i can't believe it's all over.
it's all over.
i cannot believe it.

i swear, someone needs to slap me to reality.
it's like, all of a sudden I have to go to Sunway now.
no more yellow and green uniforms, yellow and green socks, white shoes, pink buildings, ms Jain, ms Key, ms Agnes, ms Veena and whatnot.
it's really happening... man.
this is gonna be different.

i chilled with Qalila, Isabella, Stephanie, Roshiv and Audrey. Rizrin and Jun Beom(?) and Keith was there for a moment.
i had fun, really (:
i can't thank them enough.
my mom shall pay you back with a treat for lunch :)
had fondue in Haagen Dasz, I felt so bad.
went around KLCC and ate a couple of stuff.
funniest incident was the LRT :)
i love you all!

in fact, i love all the people i've been friends with. i'm so sorry if i did anything wrong. i don't wanna hold a grudge on you all.
i will never forget sayfol. ever.
how could i? that was 7 years of torture, unforgettable torture.

hah, words cannot explain how much i will miss Sayfol.
on the other hand I'm happy-ish :)
eep!
how am i supposed to get friends now? hahah.

6.7.09

cent trente-quatre.

let's have some fun
this beat is sick.
i wanna take a ride on your disco stick.
- love game ♥
i don't know how many times people have sang that, especially the disco stick part :)

year nines are semi-free since all major exams are finished, except Econs but most of us don't care about that.
EEP! haha, i can't believe year nine is already ending. and in 7 more days, i'll be in year ten already.
man, i'm growing up so fast. i wonder how my mom feels, especially for my eldest sis. harhar, must be hard to let go.

anyways, yes. i'm leaving. i can't hide that fact anymore.
wednesday is my last day of being a Sayfolian and the last time wearing the yellow and green uniform :)
excited? i am. sad too; i can't believe i'm leaving. sayfol's just a school you love to hate.
everyone stays there for friends =]
i'm gonna mark my spot on wednesday i guess. horrible thing is, i'm missing prize giving day.
oh well.

Geography was seriously screwed up.
It's the longest paper so far. Nineteen pages.
i was like, wtf even English wasn't more than 10 pages.
I couldn't even finish it. No one did. I think the dumbest part was the city construction whatnot.
Accounting was alright but everyone was confused at the trial balance. everyone had different answers. most of them got 86 something. I think that's the right one though.
whatever i already said i was gonna screw it :)

on saturday i went to watch Ice Age 3 in 3D with Putra, Jasmine and Aisha.
it was funny but kinda draggy at some parts. I love the dinosaurs :)
animators are smart eh?
Pavilion has a fountain now, I never knew. haha, and that day was the start of the sale.
mwahahaha so many things to buy!
I swear, I need retail therapy.
Can't wait to get my hands on the money and spend it - LOL. gotta make a list of things to buy :)
oh oh and I got my laptop.
my sister's laptop box is already opened but mine isn't yet.
no difference, coz we both got the same one. haha.
It looks really cool but square-ish. quite heavy too. oh well, look at it this way - I got a laptop! weee.
it's XP. I wonder if i can upgrade it to Vista since the installation CD is there.

Tennis was alright on sunday. it's all thanks to the nice weather =]
didn't see the sun on that day.
anyways, went to my relative's house. 3rd cousin to be exact.
had lunch there and was looking at my uncle fixing up his toy jetplane. :)
my mom took her mom's aunt and we went to Carrefour.
bought a lot of snacks and Snapple - yay!
oh yeah, my grandma's cousin looks like the fairy godmother in Cinderella.
seriously, i'm not lying.
had a horrible headache - slept with it and still had it after i woke up.

Maths and Literature weren't my best papers since the headache was kicking in.
and that bloody thing came. urgh.
so, don't blame me if I get some low mark for it.

french tomorrow and I really dont wanna bother studying. I'm only going to study before coz I have 3 hours to study. that's more than enough :)

anyways Wall-E is coming up in 5 more minutes, so I gotta wrap this up :)
I still remember watching that in Emirates on my way back here.. the people at the back of me were drunk and were hitting the stewardess. they were talking about aliens. awkward!

2.7.09

133 rhymes with my name :)

A date!
What's a date?
- enchanted.
James Marsden is ♥

holy gee, my exams were a couple of nutcrackers.
English was so tiring since we had to do a summary and an essay. Talk about time management, I didn't have enough time to check my essay. God knows why they made it 2 hours instead of the previous 2 and a half.
History - oh my God, don't talk to me about History. It's been my worst paper so far. I'm not surprised if I'm getting around 40 for it.
Science was a screw up, screw you nitrogen cycle. But the questions weren't so hard. I was so happy the CO2 thing came up, I studied so hard for it :3
Computer was such a drag, I finished it like the first half an hour and I couldn't find anything to do. I even wrote slowly but the time was so slow~
Mrs Jain was there for Computer and made me take out my 'Neuter Your Pets' band. Thank god she didn't confiscate it :)

Geography and Accounting tomorrow and I can't seem to find anything to really study. There's only like 2 units to study for Geog and I'm gonna screw Accounting so yay - free time.
After this week, I can chill a bit coz there's only Maths and Literature to really study for. I don't care about Econs and French is just gonna be a little bit of reading.
My mom asked me to accompany her to her friend's daughter's wedding celebration what not.
It's gonna be like in Capsquare and my sister and I were thinking of watching Ice Age 3 with Jasmine and Putra :) that is if my mom allows, completely.

I talked to Mahla today :)
I swear, that made my day!
I miss her so bad and she said she's gonna call me again on Monday. So, I can't wait. There's just so many things to say.
And I went to Subang today since my mom had to send my dad off to the Subang Airport. We passed by this seafood restaurant we ate in a year ago.
sigh I want seafood so bad, especially chili crab omg.

alrighto.
mom wants me to get off.