blessa.

I can sum the year in one word: whirlwind.
It was a terrible start and a bumpy ride throughout, but the best was obviously kept last.

Lost some, and gained more.
I've just been blessed this year.

What I'm looking forward to in 2013: graduation.
What I'm not looking forward to in 2013: post-graduation.

Innumerable changes.

lust for life;

a few weeks ago, a friend pointed out that i gave up on life so fast. maybe that was a tad of an exaggeration, but at the same time it got me thinking.

have i lost the lust for life?

if i was in denial, i wouldn't agree. things have rather seemed routined for a period of time, because i stress on how important it is on getting my daily life organized. i've been over thinking the future for a long time without a lot of external circumstances to consider.

today was a good day, and the best part is that it was all purely unplanned; just God being on my side. these kind of days are rare to me.

1. a friend wished me a good morning,
2. my mom cooked a good, hearty breakfast,
3. being right on time for the bus only because of one traffic light,
4. arriving early for work as i've been coming in late for the past few days,
5. my simple lunch tasted delicious - not like the one i had 2 days ago,
6. my boss ended the day with a 'thanks' and a few compliments,
7. a pet-able cat appeared out of nowhere when i was waiting for the bus home,
8. bumping into old friends from high school on the train,
9. welcomed to the lobby with smiles,
10. knowing that i have a pudding date with the man i love tomorrow.

so it really got me thinking,

what are the odds?

those small talks i had with my boss and my old friends might have led to the answers i've been searching for.

if they can see what i'm good at, why can't i?

press play.

self.

I honestly do not know what I'm good at.
And I feel like the answer lies in the question:
I'm really good at questioning myself.
And there lies the answer as to why I don't know what I'm good at.
But then I'll just continue questioning.

I need someone with answers.

And I need a bath tub filled with rose petals and infinite bubbles.

cold tiles.

We take things for granted.
We underappreciate.

It's a daily thought dug deep into our heads,
But most forgotten.

It's a funny game,
Because you really don't know until it's gone.

I mean, it just takes one person or thing to change it all.
It really does.

So walk.
Walk with the thought that someone will appreciate your presence.
It changes everything.