sorta kinda maybe.

and at the 177th second, i've realized that i have fallen for you. Saturday, December 5, 2009 7:28 PM / top

i dare you to move,

i dare you to lift yourself off the floor.

i dare you to move,

like today never happened before.

the last few days spent in the hostel were not a waste of time.

i had so much fun with whoever i spent my days with.

watched A Christmas Carol with Beatrice, Andra, Andriana and Hanif on wednesday.

the verdict? id give it around 7 since its graphics were good.

i got freaked out at some point. hahaha.

but what i hate was that all the Christmas Carol movies are the same.

before that, i got to play pool with Hanif and Beatrice.

haha, i lost to Hanif (not surprised) but i won to Beatrice since she shot the 8-ball in. haha :)

but before that, we were at starbucks - hanging out. it was a small table but a large group.

there was Albert, Andriana, Beatrice, Andra, Zariff, Milad, Hanif and me.

then Milad went his own way and Albert went to pick up his mom.

tried the Sour Cream at Irelands Potato and it wasnt so bad. :)

bought my sister Sims 3 which doesnt seem to work but i gave her a hug when i got home since she went through her Physics paper and was all alone at home :(

but it was all good. :)

went to The Curve on thursday to meet Hui Xian and the two Syazas :)

despite the fact that the taxi ride took half of my money (leaving me broke as hell), i had tons of fun.

New Moon was not as disappointing as Twilight.

it was more of the Wolf Pack taking off their clothes.

but it was alright :)

i still remember when Bella was sleeping and Edward was on her side, i said creep out loud and HX was shh-ing me.

but its true!

i would freak out, seriously.

and i just found out that Cathay Cineplex has salty popcorn.

finally!

ate McDonalds for lunch and meatballs over at Ikea for dinner.

yay :)

on friday, we planned to have a water balloon fight but i guess it didnt happen.

instead we went to pyramid. again.

but at first i went with Ilya, my sister and Hanif.

we ate yogurt at Tutti Fruity after that.

note to self - never eat there when you already know you have no more money.

yeah and we met up with the others after that and watched 2012.

wasted our time (chasing cars) figuring out what had happened to nana's atm card.

we got shooed out of the bank coz it was closing and coz were too loud.

talking about what? forgotten.

spent half the time in that mini toons shop looking at plushies and what not.

then we just wasted time in the cinema.

my ass was numb for 2 and a half hours.

its crazy.

and 2012 did not freak me out.

it got draggy.

after that we just hung out at starbucks and played a bit of Charades.

got home only at 1.

finally back in KL.

did nothing the whole day.

but im fine.

going back on tuesday... and i feel horrible.

we can't escape the inevitable [176] Tuesday, December 1, 2009 4:53 PM / top

who wouldve thought that a small toddler like that would grow up to be me?

things tend to be faster these days. its quite scary when you kinda think of it. i mean, growing up is something i tend to be failing at. i'm scared of the future.

yeah, its part of life but sometimes i'd like to stop to see how far i've come;

all the things i've gone through, both good and bad.

i dont think i expected myself to be like this.

i've done things that i was never supposed to; seen the forbidden; touched the prohibited.

but that actually made me who i am.

all that crap made me realize who were my real friends; who were really there or the ones that are just ignorant.

i've learnt a lot without the intention to.

it hurts to see parts of my past that just ruins whoever or whatever i am.

and there's this specific part of my past that i'd like to let go but it haunts me every time with no doubt.

if people really know me, you would know what it is but not exactly.

i've never told anyone about it.

never did, because i know their view of me would change rapidly.

and i would love to find a person that i could tell that to... and actually understand.

people tell me to let go of the past,

whatever happened, happened.

it's easy for you to say but it takes me a lot more courage than i thought to do it.

deep down inside, i'm scared.

scared of what?

everything.

life scares me.

because i know now that things happen.

with or without a reason.

and without you knowing.

and that can change everything.

more than ecstatic to go back home.

rather disappointed that i dont get enough time in KL.

2009 is ending in 29 days.

sincere apologies for the depressing post.

just thought i would actually share my emotions.

175 people on the dancefloor. Friday, November 27, 2009 3:59 PM / top

prom happened last night and i have to say that it was one of the best nights of my life so far. :)

my date was Hanif :) and we had fun.

of course, all events had those moments where it got really boring, but after all that we got the dancefloor to ourselves.

i had fun :)

dancing in heels, however is very tiring. i dont know how people can manage to do that.

my thighs were practically dead from all the jumping and dancing - haha.

i didnt even know what i was doing half the time. it was euphoria with the mix of epilepsy. haha

but of course, life is life.

which is why - i lost my phone.

but good news is, my phone is definition of shit.

camera is broken, faulty keypad, it doesnt vibrate anymore... and it goes on and on.

have fun looking at my messages and notes, thief.

you stole my memories.

but you are a horrible thief.

last four days of school were memorable.

the stress was there, especially on wednesday.

speaking of wednesday, it was the day of my drama performance!

i have to say, we did good!

we all had our small mistakes but i think it was fine.

and the band did a great job too.

sad that it all happened though.

i cannot believe i just finished my semester.

all the stress i went through.

now, all i have to do is wait for the marks.

this was us, the night before prom.

i miss prom alreadyyy.

leave me one more weekend [174] Sunday, November 22, 2009 8:03 AM / top

paintball was awesome.

very tiring; i have minor bruises and my pinkie is the one at pain most.

i got shot at the head and it hurt like crap.

but it was fun :)

shooting in movies are bullshit, btw.

i havent done my communications technology work since i'm procrastinating wayyyyy too much.

prepare to have sleepless nights doing it then.

garr.

went to pyramid on friday and watched Phobia 2.

it was some kind of unplanned triple date, hahaha.

scary, but funny (the last part was, at least)

i had fun :)

i love fridays :)

oh, and rina made me sang for open mic.

okay, honestly i've always wanted to sing for open mic but not in real life.

we sang swing swing and i screwed up shit loads.

until now, i still cannot believe that i sang. in front. of a crowd.

would i do it again? i have no idea.

going to bangsar to get my prom dress today :)

weeeee.

i hope my mom says yes to the one i really wanted.

cant believe theres only 4 more days to school left.

time is ticking way too quickly.

my life is aaaaaverage. [173] Tuesday, November 17, 2009 4:13 PM / top

Today, everyone was telling me a girl I like wanted me to ask her on a date. I approached her, and asked if it was true. She said yes, but only because she wanted to reject me in person. FML

that is what you call a bitch.

going around 1 utama was super tiring, especially when you have nothing else to do.

i bought my sister her present and a few other things for my fishies at home :)

also, bought dorayaki :)

came back at the hostel only around 10.45, but i dont want to care.

i finished with my movie poster and currently doing my radio commercial.

which i need patience in.

garrrr.

i cant believe school is ending by 8 days left.

its sad; depressing.

but then again, hello holidays! :)