124; options

i replaced my puasa for like the 2 days of my mid term break.
i actually miss Ramadhan.

today, after lunch we had a prep talk about our options.
god, i am so confused what to do.
okay - what i have in mind is astronomy or journalism.
i know they're both complete opposites of each other but hey, i've grown an interest for both the subjects.
why?
well astronomy is just one thing that i've always thought was cool.
stars aren't just there just because.
its there for a reason - and i want to know how. to remind you all, the sun is a star.
it's just so cool.
how it shines.. how everything just happens; meteors, asteroids, planets and 'shooting stars'.
its just.. indescribable.
journalism.. i've always had a passion for writing.
especially about my feelings.
its cheesy but writing can take you anywhere, and it's so interesting how writing, can change so much.
i just love writing.

i still can't make up my mind.

okay, stupid thing is that, the school just had to give us the option lists.
it's not fair.
i mean all the subjects have the ones that i don't want.
and screw you - i am not a business person.
i'd love to start my own business but i don't wanna bother about learning it.
a lot of things interest me.. which is the hard part.
i think too much of my friends and family rather than the future. haha.

if i could, i'd choose all the subjects actually.
i know it sounds so geeky of me but it's just.. you need a little bit of everything, right?
or you want to do something so bad but there are the subjects that you have to take.
urgh, this is the most confusing thing ever.
i'm so scared of the future.
i hate the future.

here are some that i'd love to take:
1. Literature
one of my favourite subjects. why? because you actually get into the core of the story. i love being on someone elses shoes. and i'm understanding - LOL. eventhough its one of the hardest subjects, i like it.
2. Human Bio
don't you think it's awesome to actually know the facts of your body? why's it like this and etc etc? coz for me it is =]
3. Chemistry
i love going to the lab, period.
4. Geography
i only like it coz i wanna travel the world. and i love lava and volcanoes. it's super sexy. i think the world map is super awesome.
5. History
i hate history. but i wanna take it coz theres so many facts about the world that i wanna know. yes, i love facts.
6. ICT
hello - ever heard of the future? computers are, like, everywhere?
i think that's all.

i don't mind taking up econs - since it's everywhere.
accounting - okay lah. i dont see the importance of accounting in my future.
business - like i said, i'm not a business person.
commerce - what am i? a bank? other people can do it!
physics - i'm actually totally fine. i think it's a need for everyone to learn physics. :B
bio - its too general.. im fine with human bio.
french - je ne sais pas.. i'm a disgrace to the french language.
a/o - go die, i cant even do factorization.
art - i'm only into graphic designing.. and that's like computerized.. and also photography which the school doesnt offer - so whats the point? and i heard it was hard.. so screw it.
what else?

uuuuuuuuuuuurgh!

can you believe im actually going to end my high school in two years?
time just passes like a lightning.
i'm just so scared.
i think im gonna have to talk to my mom about this.. later.