tears and fears, part 258

I have a fear of being alone, and being too attached to someone.

You can ask me countless of times as to why, but the only answer I can give is because I'm scared.

Scared because I don't know what would happen if those two would ever occur in my life.

And the fear of not knowing just swallows me whole.

I reread posts that has something tied to my grandfather's death.

And I cannot help but to cry, over and over again.

I guess this is what I've been hiding from everyone.

Or maybe this is what my excuse was the whole time.

Grandpa, I really miss you.
I really do hope you miss me too.